Alone?

Ever come to a standstill?? Feels like the whole world just stopped.
I try not to think about it but everywhere i go, whatever i try to do its just keeps coming back to me. Sometimes i think i'm going crazy...

What would i do without this thing... the voice that i would never have... a place where i could just be myself and spill my hearts worth... so what if its not brain empowering ... screw that, the most important thing for me is that i can breath and i can paint this page with what and how i feel....

i do feel that i am loosing a part of myself. Why does it seem so important to me?? Why can't i just let it go?... why?? Do i want to let it go?? i don't know anymore. My chest gets heavier by the minute. Like the whole world revolves around this...

its getting harder to sleep nowdays. There's always this cold draft even with the windows shut. Daddy is always at work... and when he does come at night he goes to sleep. Mummy and Robin are in Australia. It's tormenting to know that there's nobody around to talk to... share my thoughts. Yesterday when i came back from PD. I prayed the longest prayer in my entire life. I felt releaved after that... like a weight has been lifted. Guess it is true when they say that you will never be alone. Serena was right. Even when there is nobody around there's always God.

"The loneliest people can still find hope and friendship, even when the world has turned their back on them"

-Kwanzaa Katlego-

Human Rights Executive Director of Kenya, 1995-1999

Ever believe in second chances??