Wednesday, May 30, 2007

and there he went..

.. the house just got a lot more empty after seeing my bro leave for the airport. All those great times we had. Many laughs n all those stupid things we did. Am really gonna miss all that. I don't remember one day that went by without laughter.

And shortly after he left... insanity struck online in msn =P. Like 8 people: "a massacre of words". But that shortly ended as everyone was going KOOKOO!! and sleepy. ahh...

..well everyone is moving on with their lives and as for me... i'm still STUCK rite where i was yesterday... last week... last month.

I know i'm suppose to be studying now for tomorrow's Phy P1.. Its just not possible at the moment.. i feel... washed away.. like the ocean just came and swept me away. Ever wonder how it is to be lonely everyday of the week??.. well i'm about to find out cuz that's how its gonna be here for the next 6 months. =(

*The deafening silence echoes the hallway*

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Nowadays..

Yesterday went for badminton in the morning... That was great. I needed the stress relief, and so did some other ppl i guess. It was realy fun. Serena got way better since when i played last. She beat me 2 of 3 games!! Although i wished more ppl could have come.. but examz n all just makes everything like realy crappy. Lunch after that at A&W was great. Been a while since i had root beer =). After that most of the day was spent hanging around subang for a while. Had many great laughs. Heng was just camping at their base in BF2. It was hilarious watching the helicopter pilot just take off while heng was standing right in front of him holding what appears to be a remote XD. And the rest is history *BOOM!!* Had dinner at subang then went home. Only to find more problems. Imagine what dad + missing stuff = ???.

As for 2day.... i finally got a good sleep. Woke up at 11am. Just switched on the computer and began daydreaming again. Just browsing through some songs and found eventually came across this one.

Once In A Lifetime by Keith Urban

I can see it in your eyes
And feel it in your touch
I know that you're scared
Because you've never been this loved
It's a long shot baby
Yeah I know it's true
But if anyone can make it
I'm betting on me and you
Just keep on moving into me
I know you're gonna see
The best is yet to come
[Chorus]
Don't fear it now
We're going all the way
The sun is shining on a brand new day
It's a long way down
Yeah it's a leap of faith
But I'm never giving up
Because you know you got it once
In a life time
Love
Everybody's looking for what we found
Some wait their whole life
And it never comes around
So don't hold back now
Just let go
Of all you've ever known
You can put your hand in mine
[Chorus]
Don't fear it now
We're going all the way
The sun is shining on a brand new day
It's a long way down
Yeah it's a leap of faith
But I'm never giving up
Because you know you got it once
In a life time
Love
I close my eyes
And I see you standing right there
Saying I do
And they are throwing the rice in our hair
Well the first one is born
And a brother comes along
And he's got your smile
I been looking back on that life we had
I'm still by your side
[Chorus]
Don't fear it now
We're going all the way
The sun is shining on a brand new day
It's a long way down
Yeah it's a leap of faith
But I'm never giving up
Because you know you got it once
In a life time
Love
A life time love, love, love
I just love the way the song starts. Has realy nice tune. And it's keith Urban anyways, one of my most favourite country singers.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

May 24th.. last exam of week 2..

Today, woke up at 5.30am (as usual for college days). Dad made me breakfast as i was taking a shower, strange to say i was in the shower for 20 minutes! *daydreaming??* Just after that i started looking for a shirt to wear but apparently i forgot to do the laundry yesterday. *priorities??* Luckily I had one last shirt hanging in the cupboard =) *Pheew* As for breakfast, it was simple. Bread.. butter.. mixed fruits jam. YUMMY!

Took a taxi in the morning to go to college. Usually i would take the KTM but today i wasn't feeling so well. *stomach ache* The taxi driver was a nice guy. Fun chatting with him. He's the same driver who usually take me family to the airport.

Arrived at college at 7am. Thinking who to call. Wanyen's place?? Ariff?? Adrian?? Heng?? I ended up calling Heng as Ariff just wasn't picking up, Wanyen doesn't take physics so better not disturb. *she might have been dreaming about a handsome prince to come along and "wake" her from her deep slumber XD* If not wanyen... maybe someone else (phone problems it seems =P), and Adrian... umm.. didn't come to mind actually =P.

Heng looks like an old grandpa when he's just waking up without his glasses XD. I sat around in the lounge reading through physics practical notes over and over for about an hour or less, during which his housemates were just roaming about getting ready for college. One had a test the other had a presentation *hope it all went well*

Once everyone was up n ready, we (Heng, Sid and I) went out to AC for breakfast. It was OK. didn't want to eat too much just in case an emergency strikes during the exam XD. Eventually went to meet ariff and others at Old Town. Not much happened there... had tea.. a lil chit chat.. headed off to the quarantine room awaiting our shift (2nd shift).

Exam.. 1 hour 30 min into the exam. Quite a lot of people were done already. It went very well compared to Monday's physics paper *OMG i'm dead for that*.

After the exam hung out around college for a while. Had lunch. Everyone at the table was talking about sumthin except me. First thing that popped to mind "had lunch yet??". Then went off for a while. I should have gone home instead and got a good sleep *regretting it*

Came home at 5pm. Bro was relaxing in front of the TV when i came in. Things were getting very boring at home until, Just for fun, hit my bro with a pillow. PILLOW FIGHT! *just the thing to get people going.. hehehe*

The day was passing by quite fast thankfully. Just waiting till nightfall when i can finally get a good nights sleep. Been waiting for that since Monday *looks towards the sky with joy*.

Was just talking to my mummy on skype *love it cuz its free!!* a few minutes ago. Whos else uses skype??

And now i gotta go buy dinner for my brother and I.

My God!! I should have broken this blog up into parts...

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

My Playlist

1) Time To Say Googbye - Sarah Brightman & Andrea Bocelli
2) Marriage of Figaro (Maria Callas) - Shawshannk Redemption - Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

3) I Hate You Then I Love You - Celine Dion & Andrea Bocelli
4) The Skaters waltz ( Andre Rieu ) - Johann Strauss
5) Everytime I Look At You - Il Divo
6) Blue Danube Waltz - Johann Strauss
7) Marriage of Figaro - Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
8) Violin Concerto No. 3 in G major, K. 216: Adagio - Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

9) My Way (A Mi Manera) - Il Divo
10) Figaro (Largo al factotum) - Luciano Pavarotti
11) Ave Maria - Andrea Bocelli
12) I Believe In You - Il Divo & Celine Dion
13) The Four Seasons (summer) - Antonio Vivaldi
14) The Four Seasons (Autumn) - Antonio Vivaldi
15) The Four Seasons (Winter) - Antonio Vivaldi
16) Symphony No 8 (Third Movement), Haydn - Various Artists
17) Vivo Per Lei - Andrea Bocelli & Laura Pausini
18) Because We Believe - Andrea Bocelli & Other artists =P
19) Feelings - Il Divo
20) Cavalleria Rusticana - Various Artists
21) Four Seasons - Antonio Vivaldi
22) Waltz of the Flowers - Tchaikovsky
23) Concerto in D minor for Two Violins, Cello, and Strings Op111 No. 11 - Allegro - Adagio e piccato - Allegro - Antonio Vivaldi

24) Besame Mucho - Andrea Bocelli
25) Con Te Partiro - Andrea Bocelli

Some of the songs i just can't figure out what their actuall name is or who was the original artist/composer but they still sound great.

Monday, May 21, 2007

Just came to mind..

Don't you just hate it when you just thought of what you should have done or said, like 10 minutes ago when the time and place was just so "right".


I just feel so stupid that it never came to mind there and then!

AS finals

I bought three extra pens in the morning, just in case, because last week during Thinking Skills paper 2, three out of four pens DRIED UP!!

Today was physics paper 2. It didn't go as well as I'd hope. The very first question was extremely dumb *or maybe it was just me*. It required a protractor, which myself as well as some of the other candidates did not bring. As for the rest of the paper, it looked very unfamiliar o_O. Towards the end of the exam, when time just ran out, I still had about 8+ marks hanging there, unanswered. I really thought i was ready for this as most of the weekend was spent just for this one paper *I should have studied chemistry*.

I can't believe that even after such a scary experience I'm still here writing this dumb blog. I should be studying. Its times like these that make me wonder how much different my life would have been if I had never taken Pre-engineering or A'levels for that matter. But then again, there's just something that keeps me going. Hope??? *I should have slammed my head through a wall a long time ago.. STUPID ME!*

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Wishlist

1. Get straight A's for A'levels.
2. Learn to play a musical instrument. A guitar most probably.
3. Go skydiving.
4. Climb a mountain.
5. A sunset walk on the beach.
6. Build a house next to the open sea.
7. Sail into the horizon.
8. Learn to cook like a pro.
9. Visit every continent. *five down, three to go!*
10. Live a peaceful and financially secure life.*doesn't everyone want this??*
11. Fly into space.
12. Go scoober diving.
13. Just lay in a park and gaze at the stars.
14. See my folks in Slovakia again.
15. Go skiing.
16. Hug a polar bear. *its just so cute and cuddly =P*
17. Go to the end of a rainbow. *just want to see for myself if gold realy exists*
18. Learn ballroom dancing. *its just so graceful*
19. Learn seven languages.
20. Hope that i'll never do these things alone.

My World

Colourless. Hopeless. Menacing. Dark. Bleak. Gloomy. Shattered. Oppressive. Saddening. Heartbreaking. Lonely. Somber. Daunting. Miserable. relinquished. Misanthropic. Dispirited. Disappointing. Shadowy. Dim. Dull. Pathetic. Melancholic. Cynical. Forlorn. Futile. Lost.

Incurable????

Cravings

Ice-cream
*who doesn't XD*

Home cooked food
*sick of buying food*

A rainy day
*to wash away the pain*

Play badminton
*the good old days*

AS exams to be over with
*who doesn't??*

A new movie to watch
*not alone i hope*

A new place to visit
*always loved the adventure*

A new home
*its getting lonely here*

See my mom again
*has been nearly half a year*

A world without hate or misery
*One smile can turn a bad day upside down*

A proper conversation??
*what happened??*

Friday, May 18, 2007

Still dreaming

Valentines.. ah that was a great day. Well at least the night. They met up for the first time. Time just seems to fly by as they danced the night away. Everyone was having a killer time as they sat at the table just talking about anything that comes to mind.

a few days l8er..


They just began to chat.. movies, family, friends, hobbies, life experiences, mistakes made, emotion, dreams, anything that had been happening for the last 16 years (somewhere along those lines). Silly emoticons just kept the conversations going *POKE*. There was something about them just made each other "tick". Endless laughter?? Weird games (yet fun)??

*anything to break a smile**


about a week l8er...



He asked "so.. when will u be back??"
She replied "This Sunday"
Just for laughs he said "Bet i'll be the first to poke ya XD"
She replied before going off to sleep that night "We'll see about that. g'night!!"

The following Monday..



Walking down the stairs headed for lunch, they met. What was suppose to be a normal greeting turned into a dash to make the first move (strange to say he actually did that). It all just felt so "rite" at that time. Where has that feeling gone??


Some time had passed..


Thinking what to say... how to say it.. too early or too late already?? Simple tasks suddenly became so complicated. Pushing a few buttons on that dumb machine took ages!! "They" say the first few steps are the hardest. True perhaps???
It all started with a simple hello. Getting the courage to ask what he wanted to, silence screamed and the door. *Awkward moments??* . After a while of chit chat, it finally came to an end (not that he wanted it to).


Later that week (Saturday)..


Walking up those stairs... thinking what to say.. he stopped at the door holding his hand in a fist ready to knock (or is he??). Looking for an intro. Nothing came to mind. He just knocked (why take the risk??) and was greeted by a cheerful smile. Entering the room.. the first words that hit his ear.. "hi, you're early". Trying to keep his cool he let the day take him to wherever it leads him. *Leave it to fate??*

Details..details..details...... think i'll skip.
The day ended shortly though. OTHER plans kept it from going.


As the weeks past by...


Thoughts of her hit him day and night, like a squad of policemen trying to break down a door all night (not quite the comparison i'd hope to make). Papa Leong tortured him because of his "condition". *stoning*


Where are they today???

He is .... still dreaming??

She is...........

Saying "hi" helps keep the heart content

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Something that actually matters

"text is without emotion. Emotion is without text" what the hell was i thinking!!
There's so much to it than just words on a page. My heart started racing, thoughts just rushing through my mind, I started to feel.. cold inside. Just staring at what appears to be JUST text can actually change the way "you" perceive objects... mostly people. I'm done running this hopeless journey in search of truth (pathetic excuses). Its time to right the wrongs, clean the blood off my shoes..

...start over???
Wish that was an option. Its not my decision. Never has been. Guess time will tell.
*hopefully*
always wondered if second chances exist??

One step at a time

Well... At last i have decided to create a blog =) Have always been thinking about creating one but guess laziness just gets the better of us SOMETIMES. Like today I was soooo tired from coming back from college so reaching for the aircon remote was a mighty task indeed. Thank god my bro was around XD. i mean what are brothers for anyway. hehehe
PHEEW! that was a lot to write. Guess i'll save the rest of those locked up thoughts for another day =P